Noey’s day (5!)

DSC_0003 (1)DSC_0005DSC_0006DSC_0011DSC_0016DSC_0017DSC_0018DSC_0020DSC_0022DSC_0025DSC_0027DSC_0030DSC_0033DSC_0034DSC_0036DSC_0038DSC_0039DSC_0043DSC_0048DSC_0054DSC_0004DSC_0012DSC_0013DSC_0016 (1)DSC_0019DSC_0020 (1)DSC_0024DSC_0025 (1)DSC_0030 (1)DSC_0033 (1)DSC_0039 (1)DSC_0041DSC_0050DSC_0065DSC_0073DSC_0075DSC_0076DSC_0078DSC_0164DSC_0165DSC_0167Oh my sweet son.  I’m so very proud of you.  Five years old feels like a big deal and seeing you reach this milestone—one whole hand—it squeezes my heart a little bit hard.  I’m happy and excited to see you grow, but mostly just feel like I’m grasping at sand slipping through my busy fingers.  How to really not miss a moment of these fleeting days?  So often busy with necessary work, with hurdles in front of us, with decisions to be made and mundane things that preoccupy.  And then here you are, my once quiet snuggly little man child, now all long and tall and losing all that baby chub.  It’s so wonderful to have a boy in the home–all the pants with holes in the knees, the stinky boy breath, the noise and cars and the way that everything morphs into a weapon.  Also to see the special bond and understanding you have with your daddy.  The way he knows just what treats and toys will light up your world.  The way you two love to run errands together and have little pockets of man time.  It was a special memory for us all this past summer when he took just you for a long weekend to the beach to visit with your Baba and Nain.  I don’t think you’ll ever forget all the fun you had together.  This past year was the year you quietly and without fanfare asked Jesus into your heart.  Your little spirit is coming to life, delighting in Jesus, asking to pray at most meals, loving to learn about God and His Word.  Can I tell you, there really is no greater delight for a parent than to share my greatest delight with you?  To see Him at work in you, growing and shaping you.  You’re learning how to be a little gentlemen, too, with so many ladies in the house to look after and take care of.  I love to see your bond with your sisters, the way you are learning to gently care for them, to use your strength not to harm or hurt but to protect.  You take joy in being the one to hold open the door for us, and I see your delight in using your strength to serve.  We have our hurdles at times, son, of course–but

Your favorite foods are pizza (in your daddy’s footsteps), applesauce, cereal and pancakes, chips and popcorn.  You are still addicted to your dee-T (blankie) which is fine by me.  Rue the day you outgrow dee-T!  You are sensitive, careful, a tinkerer, loud and wiggly, bouncy and giggly, a lover of music (drums especially) and riding bikes.  You can’t wait to grow up and have a “real race car with a trailer behind it.”

This was maybe the most fun birthday we’ve had with you yet because you were actually excited about opening presents and didn’t mind us singing happy birthday to you since it was just us.  When you opened your playmobil “trash truck” (recycling) you said, “Yes!! Now we can go trashing all day!”  You held it up at the window for the trash men to see when they went by the next day, and they honked at you and gave a thumbs up.  It was a treat to see you build your lego airplane with daddy and I think you’re finally at the age where you really enjoy legos and playmobil.  It always surprises me how much you love your hand knits, and you wanted to put your new birthday sweater on right away.  I’m just glad it actually fit well!  You reminded me all day that you wanted a chocolate cake with chocolate icing and that you wanted cereal for dinner.  I made spaghetti, which is another of your favorites, hoping to entice you with it, but in the end relented and let you have cereal.

I look forward to the adventures we’ll have in the coming year!  Welcoming a new baby with you as my big boy helper, spring and planting our garden, fall and your official start of school.  So many new things to come!  Your daddy and I adore you and thank God for you.  Happy 5th birthday!

Love,
Mom

five years old

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You.

With all your laughter.  With all your curiosity, your creativity.  Your huge imagination.  Your happy approach to life.

I just marvel over you.  The unexpected and undeserved gift that you are and continue to be to me, to us, to this family.  In a hundred ways, you are wild grace to me from the Lord.

You’re my first, and in basically every way, you pave the way.  That can be a hard burden to bear, my girl, but I know the Lord equipped you specifically for that role.  This year with you has been so full of change.  You seemed to have transformed slowly before our very eyes into this grown up little girl child.  Still young at heart and little, but different somehow.  This year has been both death + life to us.  In the very middle of the year, we found out about your diagnosis with Celiacs disease, which felt very much like a death sentence in some ways.  Death to whatever was normal before.  I look at everything basically though the lens of “that was before we knew,” and “this is after we found out.”  And yet, that very same month, you so quietly decided to give your heart to Jesus.  I was skeptical at first that you really understood what you were doing, but I have SEEN HIM so change you.  How can that be?  I can’t explain it.  But a huge shift happened after that, and you have been such a conduit of grace in our family since then.  I have seen Him working in your heart, I have seen you become so repentant over any sin, and such a desire for God on your own, independent of our promptings.  How can this be for a four-year-old?  I don’t know, I can’t understand it.  But it is precious.

I love the way you pray.  The way you run in at night to your sister’s room as I’m putting her to sleep, the way you run in to pray over her and to sing her “Jesus Loves Me,” and kiss her goodnight.  The way you are protective over your brother + sister, and love on them so well.  The sweet bond I see forming between all of you, even amidst the days where there is fighting and tears.

I love the way you put creatures to sleep in tiny beds all over our house and dress up in the most gawdy of outfits, layers upon layers of tutus and dresses.  I love the way you still have to start the day with snuggle time with me first, and the way you don’t really feel like the day has begun until we’ve had that time.  I love your love for books and stories.  I love the way your coloring has taken off to a whole new artistic level the past few weeks.

You are hilarious and fun and I think you are a light to everyone who knows you.  Which is why we named you Phoebe, our little ray of light.  You are my girl forever and I adore you so much.  I look so forward to all that is ahead in the year to come!

Happy 5th birthday.  Now, how ’bout those birthday spankings!?

Love
Momma