Savoring the Sovereignty of God

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There is perhaps no doctrine that has consumed my thinking so much over the years as has the doctrine of the sovereignty of God.  If you have ever greatly loved God and ever been greatly wounded by God, you know what I mean.  As Piper says, “Many of us have gone through a period of deep struggle with the doctrine of God’s sovereignty.  If we take our doctrines into our hearts where they belong, they can cause upheavals of emotion and sleepless nights.  This is far better than toying with academic ideas that never touch real life.  The possibility at least exists that out of the upheavals will come a new era of calm and confidence”  {Desiring God}.

Such has been the case for me.  Truly, countless nights that I have spent tossing and turning over this doctrine in particular and its glorious and difficult implications.

As Jonathan Edwards said, “It used to appear like a horrible doctrine to me.  But I remember the time very well, when I seemed to be convinced, and fully satisfied, as to this sovereignty of God” {quoted in Desiring God}.

So what is this doctrine, some of you may ask?  Essentially it is that God is always utterly in control, that He has the right and the power to do that which pleases Him at all times.  None of His purposes can ever be thwarted or frustrated {Ps. 33:10-11, Ps. 115:3, Isa. 46:9-10}.

Of course, therein lies the rub.  The greatest of minds have wrestled with and labored over this doctrine, volumes upon volumes written about it, and yet it remains somewhat enshrouded in mystery.  If God is utterly in control, and none of His purposes can be frustrated, then what He intends to occur always occurs, and what He sets forth to accomplish is always perfectly, completely accomplished.  So how can He be good, if He not only permits evil to occur, but actually allows it with great intention?  As Piper says, “People lift their hand to rebel against the Most High only to find that their rebellion is unwitting service in the wonderful designs of God.  Even sin cannot frustrate the purposes of the Almighty.  He Himself does not commit sin, but He has decreed that there be acts which are sin–for the acts of Pilate and Herod were predestined by God’s plan” {Desiring God}.

What Piper is referring to here is the crucifixion of Jesus Christ, the ultimate and most evil act every committed by mankind in the course of history.  And yet, “the Lord was pleased to crush Him severely” {Isa. 53:10 HCSB}.  Because God saw the greater design in allowing, no, in foreordaining such evil {Acts 2:23}, He was pleased.  He was pleased for the joy that would come.  He was pleased for the redemption that would be wrought.

“Consider that God has the capacity to view the world through two lenses.  Through the narrow one He is grieved and angered at sin and pain.  Through the wide one He sees evil in relation to its eternal purposes.  Reality is like a mosaic.  The parts may be ugly in themselves, but the whole is beautiful.” {Piper, Desiring God}.

Of course, the mystery can never be exhausted.  Of course, if God could be utterly explained and reasoned away, attainable by our finite minds, He would cease to be infinite, He would cease to be God.  But what He has revealed of Himself brings great comfort.

What a comfort it brings to my soul to know:

He is never surprised by what occurs.
He is never frustrated.
He is never impotent.
He is never scrambling to come up with plan B.  (The crucifixion of Christ, “the Lamb slain before the foundations of the world {Rev. 13:8}” was never His plan B to rectify the sin problem of man.  It was the plan before the world was created.)
He accomplishes whatever He purposes, always and all times.

To hold this doctrine together with the truth that “He is good and His tender mercies are over all His works” {Ps. 145:9} brings such comfort, though not perfect understanding, in times of trial and confusion.

We were not meant to understand everything about our pain, our suffering, our trials.  We were not meant to have all the answers.  But we have these truths: He is in control, and He is trustworthy because He is good.  And one day we WILL have all the answers.  One day we will know completely, even as we are known {1 Cor. 13:12}.

What peace, what security I find here.

“His dominion is an everlasting dominion, and His kingdom endures from generation to generation; all the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing; and He does according to His will in the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth, and none can stay His hand or say to Him, ‘What are you doing?'” {Dan. 4:34-35}.

Feasting on God

The light comes through the window in dappled, twinkled glory in the evenings.  At the weary end of the day, when the shadows grow long and there is laughter and chatter at the table over dinner together, this is my view.

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My back and feet are aching, and though I’m savoring the sweetness of this moment together as a family gathered around full steaming plates, I know dishes and laundry and baths and bedtime stories and bible reading are still ahead of me.  My soul longs to just curl up in the chair, in that spot of light, and be still.  Or read.  And the time for that will come in the darkness when the house is {mostly} clean and the children are giggling back and forth in their room and all is finally done.  Always, this temptation during the day to forsake the necessary work for the pleasure.  Always, the temptation to forsake the present season for the next one.  Always, the temptation to forsake the ultimate in order to satisfy the immediate.

My soul is hungry, often dissatisfied.  It grumbles at me throughout the day to be satiated, to be fed.  It looks for quick and natural solutions.

“This is the great business of life–to ‘put our mouths out of taste for those pleasures with which the tempter baits his hooks.’  I know of no other way to triumph over sin long-term, than to gain a distaste for it, because of a superior satisfaction in God…God remains gloriously all-satisfying.  The human heart remains a ceaseless factory of desires.  Sin remains powerfully and suicidally appealing.  The battle remains: where will we drink?  Where will we feast?”  -John Piper, Desiring God

Our appetites for lesser things are quieted and quelled with feasting on something Greater.  Ah, yes, I remember.  This is the way.

Feast on God.

For the Broken Ones

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For you who feel alone:

He can find you.

“Now the Angel of the Lord found her by a spring of water in the wilderness, by the spring on the way to Shur.  And He said, ‘Hagar, Sarai’s maid, where have you come from, and where are you going?'” {Genesis 16:7-8}

For you Hagars: the cast out, the used up, the sin-broken, the sin-sick, the undeserving, the unwanted, the rejected ones, the forgotten ones.

“The Lord has heard your affliction.” {Genesis 16:11}

He cannot resist the broken ones, the searching ones, the lost ones.  The unseen ones.

“Then she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, You-Are-the-God-Who-Sees; for she said, ‘Have I also here seen Him who sees me?'” {Genesis 16:13}

He sees you today.  He knows you.  He foreknew you.

“For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,

When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.” {Psalm 139:13-16}

You, His marvelous work.  His masterpiece.  Does your soul know it very well?  Present with you from the moment of your conception, your genesis, your beginning.  Delighting over you.  Singing over you.  Knitting you together.  Writing out the story of all of your days.  Yes, He saw you then.  He knew you then.

“Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?” {Psalm 139:7}

And why would I ever want to, God?  There is no shame in Your presence.  There is only fullness of joy.  Because You are the God who sees, the God who saw me before any other, who knew my days and knew all my faltering and failing, and still said “Yes” to me.  Still choose me, set me apart.  Still said “No” to Jesus {Mark 14:36} so You could say “Yes” to me.  To fellowship with me.  To unbroken presence with me.

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“When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?” {Psalm 8:3-4}

This sky that takes my breath away, You breathed it into existence.

The star-breathing God, the One who made all this glory.. what is one small man, one small woman, that You are mindful of us? Mindful.  Mind full.. of us.  Who are You, that You are mindful of me?

This is our God.

This is my God.

I worship You today.

Counting His graces

“The initial step for a soul to come to knowledge of God is contemplation of nature.”
{Irenaeus}

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“Some people, in order to discover God, read books.  But there is a great book: the very appearance of created things.  Look above you!  Look below you!  Read it.  God, whom you want to discover, never wrote that book with ink.  Instead He set before your eyes the things that He had made.  Can you ask for a louder voice than that?”
{St. Augustine}

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“Christ wears ‘two shoes’ in the world: Scripture and nature.  Both are necessary to understand the Lord, and at no stage can creation be seen as a separation of things from God.”
{John Scottus Eriugena}

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“Nature is schoolmistress, the soul the pupil; and whatever one has taught or the other has learned has come from God–the Teacher of the teacher.”
{Tertullian}

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“The whole earth is a living icon of the face of God.”
{St. John of Damascus}

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“I see You in the field of stars
I see You in the yield of the land
In every breath and sound, a blade of grass, a simple flower,
An echo of Your holy Name.”
{Abraham Ibn Ezra}

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“See that I am God.  See that I am in everything.  See that I do everything.
See that I have never stopped ordering my works, nor ever shall, eternally.
See that I lead everything on to the conclusion I ordained for it before time began,
by the same power, wisdom and love with which I made it.
How can anything be amiss?”
{Julian of Norwich}

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“I want creation to penetrate you with so much admiration that wherever you go, the least plant may bring you the clear remembrance of the Creator.”
{Basil the Great}

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“Everywhere windows and gates, and I did not know it.  No.
I have known it and I have forgotten it and I remember it again.”
{Ann Voskamp}

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Sometimes a hard week calls for the rest of soul that comes from escaping into the wild for a bit.  Going where only the sound of wind, and birds, buzzing bees, and hushed voices live.

Leaving behind the busy world and going where your soul can grow a size or two,
expanding and remembering that we live to collect moments, not things.

And in these moments, ordinary, simple, we find we are counting His gifts.

“Counting His graces makes all moments into one holy kiss of communion
and communion comes in the common.
He will break bread and I will take and the world is His feast!”
{Ann Voskamp}

Going where the voice of man is quieted, absent almost.  And the voice of God is amplified.
Looking into what He has made and seeing how His invisible qualities are written over each one {Rom.1:20}, how the expanse of sky is declaring His glory {Ps. 19:1}.

This is what brings rest to our souls on the Sabbath: the coupling of the Word of God spoken over us, the quiet expanse of the Creation singing over us.

This is My Father’s World

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“How can I buy the communion wine? Who am I to buy the communion wine? Someone has to buy the communion wine. Having wine instead of grape juice was my idea, and of course I offered to buy it. Shouldn’t I be wearing robes and, especially, a mask? Shouldn’t I make the communion wine? Are there holy grapes, is there holy ground? There are no holy grapes, there is no holy ground, nor is there anyone but us.” -Annie Dillard

I read this post today, and a resounding YES in my soul. I pray it will never cease to amaze me, that God, the Creator of this world, the sustainer of it even in its fallen state, works WITHIN it, not apart from it. He deems it suitable to use the elements we call “ordinary,” which really are all supernaturally derived, to convey Himself to us. To give Himself to us. Flesh and blood. Bread and wine. His immense constraint in demonstrating the divine to us in cooperation always with man. Man, his partner. What an incredible, profound, eternal mystery.

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And then, these words from that precious old hymn:

“This is my Father’s world, O let me ne’er forget
That though the wrong seems oft so strong, God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father’s world: why should my heart by sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad.”