Christmas memories

This year we didn’t travel to a far-off tree farm to cut our own tree. We all missed the tradition greatly, but with the effects of the Hurricane on the region, it made sense to stay closer to home. We love to have our tree up before the beginning of Advent as it is much-anticipated to do our daily Advent reading and coloring of ornaments for the Jesse tree within the glow of all the Christmas decorations. Every year the decorating of the tree is a little different as the children grow. This year it was a particular delight to have Titus join us and seem to understand and get caught up in the wonder and joy of decorating.

The kids begged to decorate Christmas cookies this year, and I’m grateful we were able to squeeze it in and make it happen.

Favorite things from Christmas morning: the way Noah grabs Titus’ stocking with his own and brings it to Titus, the way he’s always seeing and taking care of his little brother. Titus being so excited about his own candy in his stocking, bringing everything to everyone and holding his treasures up to our faces. The way the kids all gave each other gifts, and their complete excitement to see others open the gifts they gave. How they’re catching the spirit of Christmas and finding it true that it is better to give than to receive. There truly is nothing better than being with children on Christmas. Also, it was a delight to make candied lemon and rosemary for an orange glazed gluten free vegan lemon bundt cake to take to Christmas dinner with family. All the gathering, feasting, sharing of love, celebrating and rejoicing. Sometimes it is exhausting but what better way to end the year!

Phoebe turns 14

A few days after Noah’s birthday and just before Christmas, we celebrate our Phoebe girl. What a year she has had! I won’t go into details, but she received a difficult and rare medical diagnosis early in the year, underwent a slew of tests, and started medications. While we mourned, adjusted, and learned, Phoebe carried on with courage and a quiet confidence. This girl is so easy to celebrate. She is joyful and delightful despite the many challenges she faces. She asked for blueberry muffins for breakfast, and she still enjoyed hunting around for her hidden birthday presents. She received a new bible, which she had requested, some new chapter books, an embroidery kit, journal, a special dress from Little Cottonwood, earrings, some new horseback riding pants, and a pair of hand knit socks. Regrettably, her birthday sweater wasn’t quite done in time for her big day but I finished it up a few weeks later. She loves reading and crafting of all sorts so she was thrilled. Her birthday was a frigid day so we decided to stay home and be cozy and her best friend came over to hang out for most of the day which was a treat for Phoebe.

She asked for banana pudding for her birthday dessert, a favorite of hers and Brandon’s.

She is lovely and dear beyond words. What a piercingly beautiful thing it is to watch her grow up into this incredible, bright, compassionate, creative, diligent young woman. She and I also got to have a special one-on-one overnight getaway in January after the busy rush of the holidays was over. We binge-watched our current favorite show, Heartland, and had lots of cozy crafting time and cups of tea. Oh how I miss my little tiny Phoebe girl, but it is true, the teenage years and the enjoyment of friendship and discussions together is a wonderful thing to grow into. I treasure this girl with all my heart, admiring her courage, faith, and strength. God has mighty good things in store for her!

a very special tenth

As November neared to a close, our sweet Philippa turned 10 years old. This was a much anticipated birthday as she had told me weeks in advance that turning 10 was very special and that this birthday needed to be extra special. Of course, she’s absolutely right! She requested doughnuts for breakfast, chicken soup and rolls for dinner and a cake that was half vanilla, half chocolate with vanilla frosting. Titus was delighted with the balloons when he woke up. He was quite interested in the doughnuts on the table, but the sweetest part was that when it was time to begin he picked one and then placed it carefully on Philippa’s plate for her. For her gifts, she received a magic 8 ball which she desperately wanted, her hand knit sweater, a couple of skirts, a new set of Kingdom of Wrenly books, a stationary set, and a lego dragon set that she had asked for.

God graced her birthday with his own special gift, sending the first snow flurries of the winter! Being that snow wasn’t in the forecast, we were all especially delighted and ran outside to enjoy it while it lasted. It was such a beautiful day!

Appropriately, Philippa had asked for a “snowman” cake for this birthday. It was sort of a random request but she decorated it exactly as she wanted. It seemed fitting for this day which held the first snow flurries!

There’s something about the end of the day, the blowing out of the candles in the dark, the end of that year and the beginning of a new year of life. It is something sacred watching their faces aglow, lit up by all the candles marking each of those years, all a gift of grace. It’s always bittersweet for me. I treasure these fleeting days so much, and can feel time slipping through my fingers like sand.

To mark the very special occasion of turning 10, Philippa and I also had a night away together to my parents nearby airbnb where we had meals of her choosing, stayed up late watching movies, soaking in the hot tub, sharing a king-sized bed (she always wants to try sleeping in a very big bed) and doing some shopping in town together the next day. It was a delight and will be treasured in my heart forever, hopefully hers also.

She had also asked to have a small birthday party with friends. I don’t typically do a lot of parties, but this felt like the right time. Philippa so enjoyed her week of “chef’s camp” this past summer and really has an interest in cooking, so we decided to throw her a chef’s themed birthday party (on a different weekend). She and I created a menu together and basically recreated a mini “chef’s camp” experience for her friends. It was a bit crazy and chaotic all jammed together in the kitchen with 7 10-year-old girls but it was a blast! I think it was a hit.

In the end, she was quite spoiled with all the festivities and hopefully my sweet Philippa-girl had the best 10th birthday ever. I hope her little heart was full with all the love showered on her. It was truly unforgettable!

summer things

Our school days finally gave way to river days enjoying the sun, quiet, and leisurely exploration. Although I’ve kept the garden a bit smaller and simpler this year, it has still kept us (me) busy with weeding and maintenance, bringing delight with every bit of fruit from that labor. Phoebe has planted wildflowers and zinnias in her garden box. We’ve welcomed the days of hammock snuggles and reading, being outdoors before the heat and humidity wipe us out and chase us back in. I’ve tried to be more intentional this summer about having one child assigned per night to help me cook, more of a discipline for myself and a treat for them. Philippa participated in “chef’s camp” a couple of weeks ago, and the kids all have VBS and drama camp coming up soon. It has been a year since we began our kitchen remodel, and it is nearly done, although it has led into doing shiplap down the hallway and redoing our kitchen fireplace area. So the project lingers on, as they usually do, squeezed in between all the regular activities and interruptions of life. Maybe I’ll get around to sharing a post about the kitchen project eventually.

I took “end of year” school pictures of the kids.

It was a good year, but didn’t feel like our best. Does one always feel this way when wrapping up a homeschool year, a bit drained and overwhelmed with all that seemed to slip through the cracks? Phoebe was more independent this year, doing curriculum mainly chosen by our classical homeschool co-op. She excelled but I missed connecting with her. My hands felt very full beginning kindergarten with Wren and juggling a nursing napping baby in the midst of it all, while still being quite sleep-deprived. Wren enjoyed doing writing lessons and math, but found reading to be difficult although she progressed so well during the year. It always feels like a small miracle and glorious mercy to launch another child into reading. Philippa worked well through third grade without any major hiccups. She’s a diligent student and really took off with reading chapter books this year. Titus learned how to walk and is beginning to say little words here and there, and we celebrate every little bit of it. Phoebe received a very difficult medical diagnosis at the end of January/early February that wiped us all out emotionally for some time as we reeled and adjusted, spending a lot of time in doctor’s offices doing tests. She has begun some medications, and we have had a lot of learning and processing to do. Some days it all still feels very painful, overwhelming, and sad. She, however, has risen to the challenge with faith and joy, true to her character. Noah wrapped up fifth grade, officially closing the chapter on the “elementary” years and beginning “middle school” this autumn, which feels like another big shift. I’ve tried to give myself a good measure of grace in light of all of this as I look back over the school year. There were other changes and challenges I won’t mention here. It was actually quite a hard year to strive for consistency and excellence. Some days it really felt like just keeping our heads above water and I finished the year feeling very spent. Some years are like that, though. Still a sweet year of learning and growing together, while walking through a lot of ups and downs. I’m endlessly grateful for this amazing work of home education, though it truly stretches me beyond capacity and certainly causes me to be dependent on the Lord in ways I never could have imagined. It is so fruitful and sweet, even in the hard “off” years.

Since wrapping up our school year, I have begun a major project of reorganizing and cleaning up the school room. It hasn’t been done for quite a few years now, and our kitchen remodel threw everything into a greater level of disarray than usual. Every day I’m taking as much time as I can to sort, minimize, and begin planning for next year. I often underestimate how long this takes and also how awesome it feels to declutter and bring order back to the chaos. It is breathing new life into our school space.

a spring birthday + a historical farm visit

Dear little Wren-wren turned six on March 3rd, when the hellebore were blooming and the frosty mornings gave way to the scent of warming soil. She received a new dress, as she does every year (and I’m grateful she is still excited about that), as well as a new hand knit sweater. She also received a new book of course, as well as a small camera that prints photos, with a few other goodies. Already I have forgotten some of the details of her day, but I know it was a delight and joy to celebrate this happy little girl who can’t wait to grow up.

We gathered with some fellow homeschooling friends to visit a local historical home and farm, the Historic Johnson farm. Touring the old home, doing a craft together, followed by touring the school house and a tractor ride on the grounds to visit the goats and bees was a delight to us all. It is sweet to step back in time and see how people lived in the late 1800s. I love all the old farmhouse elements so it was a delight to tour. Afterwards we had a big group picnic on the grounds. It was the first time in a long time that I took my old camera along for photos instead of using my phone, reawakening my love for capturing moments in this way. With computer issues preventing me from uploading photos until recently, I sort of abandoned my camera for awhile. It is so good to pick it up again and play.

Don’t you just love the old homes? I get so much inspiration for design for my own home. There is also a heritage weavers and fiber arts building on the farm and I plan to take a spinning class here next month, which I’m very excited about. It’s always enriching to connect with local fiber artists. Little field trip excursions like this really enliven our homeschool days, and I’m always grateful for the way spring brings a bit more breathing room into our schedule to allow for them.

summer fun

All the little moments, their childish messes and the general disarray of our home with busy little people constantly at play. These are things I don’t want to forget. Seasons will come and go and the phases they are currently in fade quietly into the next. I was putting wren to bed today and remembered how when she was first learning to talk she would wake up in the mornings and say first thing, “Goo’ morning mom!” in the voice she uses when she’s trying to sound big. I loved it so much that when I put her to bed at night I would always say, “And don’t forget to say ‘good morning mom’ when you wake up.” Before I could even finish saying it she would say “I not forget!” so fast and then I would tickle her. Then she began to tease me and say “I forget,” knowing she would be tickled. I still remind her when I put her to bed and she still says it every morning when she wakes up but now her little voice is different and she doesn’t say “I not forget” anymore and I so wish I had recorded it sometime on camera so that I can not forget. Now she will just say as fast as she can “Forget” and “sbasket” (which is how she says “basket”) just to get tickled as I’m putting her to bed. I love the little years. Hard as they have been at times they have brought so much joy and I don’t want them to end!

Phoebe did drama camp this summer. We were grateful it was offered! She had a great week and played the part of an evil knight in the play. She did a great job! I always admire the ease with which she is on stage performing in front of others. Noah and Philippa did a week of basketball camp (Crossfire Ministries). They were a little overwhelmed at the beginning and balked at going after the first day, but they learned a ton and had a really special week together. It sparked in both of a them a new love for the sport and they have been practicing their drills at home.

In other summer news, my sister and her children visited for about 2 1/2 weeks from British Columbia, Canada. It was a really fun time together reconnecting after three years of not seeing one another and a lot of changes and challenges in our families during that time. It was really precious to be with my niece and nephews, have a lot of pool time and play at my parents house together. We had a picnic one weekend and met my brother and his family there to meet their brand new adopted daughter, Eliana Joy. She was born two months premature and is so tiny in these photos. We loved getting to see her and hold her finally! And we look forward to doing so again soon. (I can’t share photos of her face yet until all things are final.) More summer fun to share in the next couple of posts, I’m trying to catch up after so much busyness and very little time to blog about it all.

I hope you are well and enjoying the final bits of summer!

beach days (part 1)

A couple of weeks ago on Memorial weekend, we took a long weekend to visit Brandon’s parents at the beach a few hours away. We haven’t been to visit them in quite some time, nor have we been to the ocean for a long while. It was so good to be away, to become acquainted with the ocean again and the wonders and wildlife that coastal ecosystems have to offer. Wren doesn’t have any memories of the ocean as far as I know, and she was very excited to go to the beach! We left on Thursday after Brandon came home from work and got there quite late that evening. Friday morning we had a relaxing start and then eagerly got ready for the beach. Wren was quite apprehensive about the water and it took her a couple of days to really warm up and feel brave to go in without holding someone’s hand. But by the end she was jumping and splashing in the waves laughing hysterically. The other kids took right to the water, playing on the boogie boards all day, building in the sand, or hunting for shells. Later, Brandon’s dad treated us to a ride on his sail boat. We motored in the intracoastal waterway to watch the sunset and it was both beautiful and peaceful. Bunny had to come along in a bag, just to make sure she didn’t get wet. I’ll share more photos from the rest of our time in the next blog post, there are just too many to share all at once! Suffice it to say, our time together there was relaxing and refreshing, and it did my heart a lot of good to see these kiddos laughing, exploring, playing nonstop, and being generally spoiled rotten by their grandparents. 🙂 What a gift.

a happy Easter

Easter Sunday was extra special this year. Last year we didn’t gather with family or friends so the celebration that we felt this year was even greater. What a joy to be with other believers celebrating the risen Lord Jesus together! We joined my brother and his family at their church for an outdoor service because my niece, Athaelia, was going to be baptized. It’s just hard to beat that kind of joy, friends. It was a very sweet and memorable day!

After worship we gathered at my parent’s house for Easter lunch and the kids did a small egg hunt. My parents always do such phenomenal meals, this one was no exception. Roasted lamb with a citrusy fresh salad, roasted parsnips and potatoes. I made a gluten free carrot cake for dessert for the kids and my mom made creme brûlée. So delicious! Best of all was the reason for our gathering and the freedom to do so.

“May this shared meal, and our pleasure in it,
bear witness against the artifice and deceptions
of the prince of the darkness that would blind this world to hope.
May it strike at the root of the lie that
would drain life of meaning, and
the world of joy, and suffering of redemption.

May this our feast fall like a great hammer blow
against that brittle night,
shattering the gloom, reawakening our hearts,
stirring our imaginations, focusing our vision
on the kingdom of heaven that is to come,
on the kingdom of heave that is promised,
on the kingdom that is already,
indeed, among us,
For the resurrection of all good things
has already joyfully begun.”

(Excerpt from Every Moment Holy, A Liturgy for Feasting with Friends)

With full hearts, we headed back home where we had our own little egg hunt planned for the kids per usual. My favorite is when they sit on the ground afterward with all their loot and sort through their goodies. We snapped a quick family picture which I will treasure. The brilliant hues of new growth, the persistent reach of vibrant blooms, the smell of fresh grass and lilac on the warming breeze. It is so good to revel in these spring things.

From last Easter till now the Lord really has done a great work in my little family, and continues to bring new life to places that needed reviving. Truly,

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3)

The Lord has done great things for us, and we are glad. (Psalm 126:3)

Happy Easter, friends. He is Risen! And no matter what else we are facing, no matter what else is true in our lives, this is true. Death is defeated, we have hope and life because of it.

three years

After watching all her siblings’ birthdays come and go this past winter, Wren has been wondering and asking regularly when it will finally be her turn. A few weeks ago as I was getting her dressed she begged, “Momma now can you make my buth-day? Because I’m bigger!” She has randomly asked me to make her “buth-day” a few times and I eventually came to understand she was talking about her cake. More than even her presents, she was excited about that cake. 🙂 The big day finally came last week. It’s hard to acknowledge that my little baby is really not a baby anymore, but a chatting, funny, mischievous three-year-old who is eager to keep up with her older brother and sisters. I sweetly reminisced on her birth, what a joyful and quiet time it was enjoying her arrival. She has brought such laughter and fun to our family these past three years in part because the older children have been old enough to really enjoy having a baby to carry around and take care of. They have enjoyed all her stages of growth and development just as Brandon and I have.

She wanted cereal for her birthday breakfast, and she was excited to see the balloon and bunny decorations. Afterwards she opened her gifts before daddy went to work. Her birthday sweater was the first thing she opened! I had stayed up until almost midnight the night prior finishing the last sleeve, weaving in ends and sewing on the two buttons. No time to block it, but she wouldn’t notice. (Now that I have blocked it, it looks better!) She wanted it on right away and has worn it most days since then. Very sweet girl to her mommy and very knit-worthy.

We gifted her a new backpack since the one she has been using isn’t very big or useful for hiking, and she’s starting to want to wear her backpack like the older kids when we go for hikes. We gave her a small journal with beeswax crayons in a little tin for her backpack travels. The best gifts are the ones they want to start using right away, and true to form she cracked open that tin and started coloring right away in her journal. We gave her The Story of the Orchestra: Carnival of Animals book because she loves this series so much. She was truly delighted! We also gave her the Our Little Adventures book set because it is beautiful, simple, and has bunnies and other forest creatures in it. She also received a new dress (called the wren dress), a sweet bunny pillow that I couldn’t resist from Target, a wooden animal/alphabet puzzle that she has enjoyed (and the other kids, too!), as well as a toy dragon (because for better or worse, all of my kids are obsessed with these dragons). Brandon’s parents gifted her with a sit-and-spin also.

My mom and the little guy she nannies (who is now a good friend to my kiddos) came over later in the morning and we made a trip out to Carl Sandburg to see the goats and go for a little walk. It was beautiful there and just starting to feel like spring, but we were bummed that the goat barn was still closed. Even still, it was a fun outing! Later, Wren finally got to have her cake. I made the same vegan carrot cake I’ve made every year for her so far (though this year I didn’t make it vegan) and it was delicious.

So it was all in all a very fun and happy day and I was sad to see it go. She is so proud to be three and bigger now, and I’m missing her little baby self but so grateful for the delight that it is to watch her grow.

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finally, ten

Finally, ten years old. For a girl who can’t wait to grow up, this birthday has long been anticipated. Though I share in her joy and celebration for sure, this momma also feels the surprise and hint of sorrow that comes with realizing how quickly ten years have gone by and how quickly this firstborn of mine is changing and becoming a little lady. This girl has inspired and shaped so much of my journey as a mother, as firstborns often do. God couldn’t have given a better gift to us those ten years ago on the day before Christmas Eve in that early morning snowfall. God couldn’t have set apart a better kiddo for paving the way. She is strong, incredibly joyful, vivacious, enthusiastic, positive, resilient, determined, compassionate. She loves everyone easily and generously. She forgives quickly. She has a huge passion for learning and exploring, and her own sweet faith in God is growing and continually encourages and challenges me.

I would venture to guess there are few who enjoy a party and presents as much as Phoebe does, so her special day was much anticipated. She was excited and happy over every gift as you can see in the pictures. She received from us some horse backing riding pants and boots, her birthday sweater which I knit, a new dress for her Kaya doll, a book, a new breyer horseback rider for her collection, as well as a couple gifts from family. I especially enjoyed seeing the other children wrap up favorite stuffed animals and toys in their blankets and present them to Phoebe as gifts. We also surprised her with a riding lesson at the same stable where she participated in horse camp this past summer. Everyone enjoyed the outing to the stable and visiting with the horses, and I was reminded that one’s area of interest enriches all of our lives. Later that night we had cake and sang happy birthday and marveled over this little ray of light. What an endless source of delight to us she is.